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jesuiscigarro @ 2007-04-20T23:09:00

2007-04-21T06:09:45Z

I've never wanted to be with someone more than I have for the past year.
Ever.

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-04-07T18:50:00

2007-04-08T01:50:31Z

Have you smoked/pwned by MC Chris?
your answer: no
my answer: yes

I ain't never coming back

2007-04-05T19:09:13Z

Everyday seems insensible. It's always vitamins, music, nothingness. I can't wait till I leave this summer, hopefully I can get past all the assholes who assume, basically all the indie faggots in vegas.
I've got this deep feeling in my gut that I'm going to be alone. Before I was afraid to be, now I'm just afraid I wont have anyone like her again...because I wont.

I apologize if my entries have seemed low.

fucking A man

2007-04-03T03:05:01Z

sealab 2021...

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-03-07T17:44:00

2007-03-08T01:46:34Z

I'm going to try to be happy.
I really have no goals or ambitions towards anything but whatever.
So here are some goals I made.
1. Make up everything with Elyssa for not being able to hang out with her last weekend.
2. Find friends who actually give a shit for me, (aka people who will be there and dont just leave out of my life out of nowhere)
3. Start Writing music again
4. Get all A's and B's this quarter
5. Get over the girl who has controlled my life for the past two years.

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-03-05T18:11:00

2007-03-06T02:11:54Z

well i shook hands with satan and all his friends
told them to come back
downtowns the place to get your
but honey you wont ever come back

the good times and bad times are rollin around
tougher than the buffalo's back
the evil one is tellin his son
hide and never come back

your wearing that red scarf across your eyes
telling people to push back
you cant stand the taste of the ground
so fly and never come back

ramblin round the town and all of people wearing bright scarlet shades
telling my former lover that walls are all fake
were moving down around to new york city
grab your bags lets get the hell out of this place

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-03-05T16:37:00

2007-03-06T00:37:21Z

why do i feel so empty and unsatisfied with anything?

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-03-04T00:33:00

2007-03-04T08:33:10Z

Too good :]

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-03-01T17:21:00

2007-03-02T01:24:27Z

So I finally reached a state of independance and self-reliance a month or two ago. I am completely fine with myself, I dont care what anyone thinks, I am in a state of europhoria and being high constantly, and i've never felt worse.

It's hard to be in a relationship with anyone when your going manic depressive over someone that you never had a chance with ever.

I'm going to first friday tomorrow and I'm going to make an ass of myself.

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-02-25T12:34:00

2007-02-25T20:34:07Z

I have myself.
and nothing else.
fuck you.

I seriously thought about it. And my life is going to be in this constant cramp. I'm never going to get over this. It's probably a disease.
Whatever

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-02-22T22:28:00

2007-02-23T06:28:44Z

i havent cried in three months....
what the fuck

feck

2007-02-23T03:04:09Z

Sometimes i wish i could love more than one person. When i've finally apapted to myself and found out that practically everyone is just a big cock socker. And all I can do is sit, and stare at a wall or something. Everyday is like a hangover. I wish I could love someone besides her, but I cant. It's what I want, and I'm not settling for anything less for the rest of my life, even if it means i'll be tortured till' I kill over

plans for this week

2007-02-21T23:37:44Z

I literally have lost my mind as well as everyone and everything.

The End.

:)

2007-02-20T01:30:52Z

I'm going to recap last week and rate each one with a smiley face with a nice score at the end to see if it was infact a good or bad one.
1. Bought a new 2003 Saturn Ion :)
2. Went job hunting, had to shave :(
3. Kept thinking about if I truly have any friends anymore :(
4. Went to Arizona with my family for my little brothers soccer game :)
5. Hung out with Ben and Matty :)
6 . Talked to Elyssa, of which was, and still is my favorite person of all time and when she calls me boy it makes me smile big time
:) = 4 :( = 2
Good Week.

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-02-14T21:16:00

2007-02-15T05:17:28Z

I give up, on everything. It's not even depression. It's something much deeper. I truly feel lifeless. No one can help. No one will help.

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-02-12T20:41:00

2007-02-13T04:45:19Z

Highlights of Feb. 2007
1. Got a Hair Cut
2. Shaved
3. Got in a car accident. Lost my Ford Escort due to damages. Bruised ribs and cuts were also involved.
4. Bought a new 2003 Ion.
5. Waiting to be disapointed on valentines when I dont get a mariachi gram damnit.

what i want

2007-02-05T02:18:36Z

I want to implant cannabis into my blood stream, naturally becoming apart of my DNA structure so I can be high every living moment of my life.
I drove around town yesterday with matty, and my new stereo. down and out Played as I was discussing to matty how the black lips can travel at the speed ouf sound. And then Fad comes on, and I speed... and speed and speed. And some magical way, we make it home.
I hate everyone.

gay fag fag

2007-02-03T00:33:09Z

32 mountain dews
and no sleep = me and friends making dumb movie

national hero

2007-02-02T01:16:02Z

Fiona Apple is a queer but zach galifianakis is my hero
of all time

bad thrashin

2007-01-31T04:31:44Z

I think im gonna get all my hannukkah candles and start a cult at first friday. I've got about 45, thats enough to make a pentagram, right?
Think about it, the super stocks playing in the backroundit shall be a revolution. Join me?

^_^

2007-01-23T23:50:19Z

So I decided to add something today. And what I wrote was extremely fucking dumb. So Instead I shall delete the previous entry. And have this one mean nothing. I would like to have someone that would actually enjoy me being around. It sounds kind of retarded, but why can't someone be obcessed with me? I mean, I am probably the greatest thing ever. And i've got nice legs to. But seriously...why can't things just fucking happen already?

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-01-19T13:45:00

2007-01-19T21:45:11Z

thanks leroy jefferson
for being my best friend

mmmmmmmmmm

2007-01-18T05:14:41Z

i've found out that im one lonely piece of shit
my days consist of sitting thinking of different ways i can sing about bbq sauce, jumping, ignoring people, feeling ackward when talking to almost every girl, while shitty japanese surf rock penetrates my skull. I kind of hate how everyone is extremely dull to the fullest extent. I fucking hate las vegas, I hate all the mediocre people who live here, and I hate how I do nothing. I feel like a fucking hot dog swimming in a bowl of shrimp coktail.
COK TAIL

ummmmmmmmm

2007-01-14T22:45:57Z

yeah i just figured out how to work this thing

jesuiscigarro @ 2007-01-14T10:57:00

2007-01-14T18:57:08Z

I'm probably the most attractive person on this planet.